I Am Not Peter Pan

January the 19th. This year I'm officially 20. But honestly I do not feel the growth--of course. When I saw myself in the mirror this morning, nothing changed, still yesterday's face. Yesterday and Today: Different age, same face. Well, actually what did I expect, I don't know. Although I admit, a week before today I felt a bit scary --but excited, yes-- to face this day. It's just like, "Wow, I'm about to leave my teenage moment." "Can't wait! what will happen on January 19th?" "I'm just a kid, is it gonna be 20 already?"

Yup. I'm 20 now. Just like Jacqueline Emerson says, "I can't be a kid forever." Yaaay, nice lyric, Emerson! Let's make her Peter Pan song be today's soundtrack. Watch and listen below:

The music video is all about Jaqueline singing and playing keyboards. But don't ever think it will make you bored, because it won't. Trust me. I think it's the way she plays those keyboards that makes the video enjoyable to watch. So dynamic, jumping up and down following the music. Moreover, you won't get bored watching her face. Her smile is that nice, IMO. :)

"I know that I can't be a kid forever
But I know that I must live it now or never"

"I wanna freeze time at the drop of a hat
But even I can't do that"

"Everyone's pushing for us to grow up

But everything's happening way too fast

Everything's changing it's all rearranging

But you only live once"

Anyway, not that I don't want to grow old but.. wouldn't it be nice if we could be a kid forever and should not worry  of anything? Or live in a fantasy like ever? I love fantasy world a lot. Yes, it would be very nice, but come on.. no one should have wanted that. I wouldn't want to be trapped in innocence forever. We need challenges. We don't want to live a life monotonically, do we?

It was a very beautiful day today. I wish everyday was my bhirtday but... well, no, thank you, I'm old enough :) I do feel touched seeing this cake, gift, birthday invoice, and wishes from all these wonderful people. I couldn't believe that there are people out there who really care about my birthday. Although there's this one birthday wish that I didn't get. FYI, this one wish is so simple, soooooo simple, it iiis that simple, but I guess it's too much for me. It's 11.42 p.m already and still there's no signal of it. 

That one wish makes me so sad, definitely.  But right now, nothing I could do but be thankful. Thank You ♥